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Martha's avatar

This was a wonderful piece ❤️ resonated a lot - I got diagnosed with chronic uti a few years ago now, and my personal experience with the illness has been incredibly systemic. My main symptoms of the illness are chronic nausea and exhaustion, along with alot of pelvic pain/bladder pain. When I flare I reach extremely high temperatures and my blood pressure drops like crazy so I feel like pure shit. I had 2 straight years where I was entirely bed bound (it’s more housebound now, and it is changing) so a lot of what you’ve discussed I can completely relate too. It was such an avalanche at the age of 21 going from being completely able bodied and young to being so severely unwell I couldn’t get out of bed.

Not being able to work, exercise or see friends absolutely wrecked me and I struggled alot with such intense grief of the life I thought I would have after uni compared to my reality. I’m on long term antibiotic treatment for cUTI which wrecks me in other ways! The comments you made about neuropathic pain I completely relate too - antibiotics have give me neuropathy and it’s exhausting to be in so much pain. Also the food! I’ve had to completely change my diet, there’s so much I can’t eat, the level of attention it requires to monitor your diet in the way it seems we both have too is so emotionally taxing.

It’s all so heavy. Thinking of you ❤️ I think your newsletter is so great, it really is hard to be so vulnerable about your health, especially on the internet. The disclaimer at the end made me chuckle because it is so true. It’s so depressing but you do have to remind people that you have covered all bases, are a complete expert in your illness & body and a herb cleanse or some yoga is not going to make you better.

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I was advised by my doctor not to accept an ME diagnosis because, as he put it, 'there's no cure and since you have the mild form there's a chance you'll work again'. He was dismissive of the exercise therapy that is the bulk of the NHS treatment for ME, a stance that I've since learned a lot of people with ME agree with.

He was right on both counts, I do work now, but half of that battle was receiving diagnosis and treatment for my ADHD, which not only improved my quality of life it itself but meant I could actually take care of myself. Even my intolerance of gluten eased after a few years. I thought I had entered remission entirely, but after my first hiking trip (where old ladies both outpaced me and went further than I did) I think I've put myself in PEM. Is there such a thing as true remission for ME or is it just a case of not being in an active flare? I'm not sure.

But I thank you for sharing your experience. It's certainly got me to re-think mine and maybe take steps to rest more and reduce input for a bit whilst I recover. I hope for the best for you, whatever you want for yourself I hope you get it.

Something that stood out to me in particular was how you describe listening to 'easy' TV on low with a mask and shut curtains, because that's what I do now with migraines because my brain needs something to distract itself from the godawful pain or it just shreds itself. Sometimes I hallucinate and at least with the TV on I can control what it is that's stood at the end of my bed. And people just don't get it. 'Well, if you can watch the TV you can do x'. No, you try lying here for ten hours in awful pain for the third day in a row and see how you cope with staring at the wall. Obviously, I'm lucky in that these episodes are infrequent, but I saw myself in your experience and I'm so glad you are talking about it because nobody does and people just don't get it.

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