Lovely meditation as always. Found it tricky to get to the part of me that felt rejected but when I asked the 7 or so yo version of me why she didn’t believe the teacher about my artwork she copied and shared it round the class, why I didn’t feel good about it or like I’d excelled - even with that praise and recognition - she said it was because she didn’t feel worth anything back then. Though she went on to say she is worthy, she knows she is now.
Interesting though isn’t it?, fascinating even, that all the years of conditioning for external validation and even when we had/got it, it didn’t mean sh*t. Not without feeling worthy inwards. And yet we spend our entire lifetimes seeking it. An illusion.
Lovely meditation as always. Found it tricky to get to the part of me that felt rejected but when I asked the 7 or so yo version of me why she didn’t believe the teacher about my artwork she copied and shared it round the class, why I didn’t feel good about it or like I’d excelled - even with that praise and recognition - she said it was because she didn’t feel worth anything back then. Though she went on to say she is worthy, she knows she is now.
Interesting though isn’t it?, fascinating even, that all the years of conditioning for external validation and even when we had/got it, it didn’t mean sh*t. Not without feeling worthy inwards. And yet we spend our entire lifetimes seeking it. An illusion.
Oh wow! Much love to your 7 yo you ❤️🌸