I’m going on my April break, but I won’t be gone for long

This has been an amazing season and I’ll be back at the end of April

Madelleine Müller (she/her)

Apr 03, 2024

Hi friend!

Wow, this has been an amazing season at The Bed Perspective.

I’m getting ready to go on my April break, but I won’t be gone for too long.

This season, I was interviewed by the lovely

Emily Bazalgette

from

GriefSick

about grief, creativity and chronic illness. You can listen to and read the interview here.

It’s also this season that I started doing meditations and it gives me so much purpose to see your comments about how it went. I feel like I can bring a piece of my past life into the present (I used to teach yoga and meditation). You can find all the meditations here.

I also started community threads. The last one, on the most problematic thing a doctor has told you, felt like a communal ritual for sharing testimonies that, at least for me, helped me in my healing, as I can truly see I’m not alone.

Thank you to everyone who shared some of their most vulnerable moments. As you all know, I’m a big fan of sharing testimonies and stories to help us all alleviate shame and feelings of being alone. To me, this is a feminist and anti-ableist practice.

My favourite piece this season was Tiny creative acts: How I stay creative in the midst of chronic illness. I loved seeing all your responses and ways you too stay creative. I love picturing each and everyone of us in our bed-pods working our magic as best as we can.

On a personal note, I’ve been a tad below baseline most of this season. I had an awake week at the beginning of January where I was able to write most of the posts for this season. It was truly magical. But until recently I’ve been a bit below baseline and I hate those periods. They are boring and depressing and it’s difficult to get through the day, because there is nothing my brain can do. I even had a dream where we caught a polar bear and it started verbally complaining that it didn't have a jungle gym and how bored it was. Was that a hint from my subconscious?

That’s why it’s been an extra bliss this season to talk to you all in the comments. It has brightened my days and lessened the isolation and boredom.

I’m back at baseline now (I’m trying out new medication) and I am looking forward to going on my break and slowly begin writing again.

I also have a lot of work to do for my album. If things go to plan, I will have my first single out in October this year. I am slowly creating lyric videos and blog posts and some social media posts for marketing.

All of the songs are done now! Wuut wuut. We just need to clean up the stems and then send them to the mixing and mastering engineer. Wow! I honestly never thought I would get to this point. I’m so elated and my heart is fluttering all over the place.