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Michelle Spencer (she/her)'s avatar

Oh Madeleine, yes absolutely I have been medically gaslighted. The worst time was back in 1989, when I had a severe virus and took many weeks to recover. I was sent to an expert diagnostician who pronounced me perfectly healthy and who asked if I had broken up with a boyfriend or if I was stressed about exam s (!) I had taken the day off work, and decided I might as well have my annual optometry eye test as I passed their shop on my way home. After a few minutes of testing the optometrist asked: “How long have you been out of hospital? Should you be out & about alone? They should have warned you we wouldn’t be able to check your eye sight so soon after a major illness.” Accoeding to my eye test that day, I was legally blind, because the muscles of my eyes were so fatigued they coud not hold focus and kept randomly focussing at different distances. Distressed, I apologized and assured him I wasn’t doing it on purpose and I would try harder. He was shocked and coaxed the tale of my recent medical histoey out of me. He told me that “the eyes don’t lie” and this was a syndrome they only ever saw in people who had or were newly recovered from a major systemic illness. He encouraged me to take a taxi home, rather than public transport, if I could possibly afford it. He also begged me to find another doctor. “You are sick and you need a doctor to be making sure you get better and don’t go back to work too soon.” Thanks to that eye doctor I am more resistant to medical gaslighting but I still dread it every time I see a new health professional.

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Lisa Andradez's avatar

Absolutely a victim of medical gaslighting, so much so that I put off going to the GP for as long as I possibly have, because I dread what they are going to come up with this time. As a trauma survivor also I have definitely distrusted myself so many times, and often find myself doubting my illness, my symptoms and my abilities as a writer, looking for validation more than I should. Recognising it helps, and knowing I am not alone helps too, thanks for your words 😃

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